its been so long since i wrote in this thing. i dont even know where to start. thanksgiving we got up early and drove to greensboro to matts grandmas house. it was nice. i got to meet his moms side of the family. and everyone was really nice. his aunt came in and just like kissed me on the forehead. hahaa. and his smallest cousin ashlyn was so sweet. i played with her most of the time. then we left there and went to larrys moms. had a good time over there but ate wayyy too much. then i finally had the weekend off. so friday we went to jareds to get my watch fitted! thattt sweet boy got me a watch for christmas and gave it to me early :) but its sooo pretty and he picked it out all by himself! then after work we went to best buy to get my new phone. i let the other one go unpaid and now im just on matts family plan. then i went home and just wrapped some presents. did some stuff around the house. while i was wrapping all the presents matt sat with me. it was nice just spending time together. saturday we got up and went shopping to try to finish all our christmas shopping. so we got everyone done except my parents! then we went over to my dads because he was frying a turkeyyy. sunday i got up real early and had a horrible headache. so i fell back asleep on the couch while matt was outside cleaning the porch and stuff. bless his heart. so i woke up and like 12 and cleaned the kitchen and straighten up the living room. so we went and had lunch then got our christmas tree! and a wreath for over the mantle. so we went my matts mommys to get some ornaments. then we got back to our house, and put the christmas tree inside but we dont have enough lightsss :( so my parents came over for a little bit.. and we just decided to finished the tree on monday. so we watched the carolina game, finished laundry, and larry fried deer meat.

im sooo happy.

drop everything now.

last friday after work me and matt left for his dads house. it was a decent drive, but we took 64 so we skipped all the traffic that was on 40. once we got there we had chicken and pastry! my favoriteeee. and we just watched tv and stuff. saturday we got up and went to eat breakfast at Millers? i think thats what its called. that was really good. then we went to the mall in winston-salem. then we went back to the house and i took a little nap :) haha. we had dinner at this cute little place and it was veryy good. i had shrimp <3 then we watched toy story three! it was sooo good, just kind of sad. sunday matt made us breakfast then we headed home. went by belk to pick up the new pots and pans.

i dont really remember much cause its been so long. one day last week we moved all my clothes and bathroom stuff from my apartment to matts. friday night matt had the state game and he asked if he could drive my car because it would be easier to park than his truck at the rbc center. so i took his truck to go shopping in :) haha, well dollar tree shopping anyways.i had to work saturday. so saturday morning i go out to my car and i have rain guards on my windows! i was so excited. ive been waiting those since i got my car. he never took my car to the rbc center. haha, he left it at honda for dewayne to put the visors on! how cute is he? i love surprisesssss. i had lunch with him and larry at macaroni grill. then after work we drove out to lake gaston to meet up with crystal and john. we got there around nine, and crystal was already trashed. and it wasnt long before i was too. yikeeess. i took 7? shots within like an hour. why? idkkk? hahaha. so i threw up and went to bed at like 11? hahaha. it was fun though. and melissa, and my babyyy sat beside me when i was throwing up. haha. apparently im a calm drunk. i remember matt coming up to the door and i was just like " HEYY, i just threw up " haha then brushing my teeth. lmao. sunday morning we all went to cracker barrell! it had been so long i was happy to eat there. then i played with melissas kids for a while and we drove home.we laid around for a little bit. then took showers and got ready to go to my grandmas. while we were getting ready matt got upset because he lost a pair of pants i guess that are expensive and fit really good or something? so he was like flipping out and yelling. so i yelled back. then i just left the room and waited for him to get done. and he told me he was sorry for yelling and kissed me. he apologized, WOW. i didnt even know what to say because i was in such shock that a guy was apologizing to me. and meant it. so we went to my grandmas, dinner was amazinggg. i cut like a billon coupons from the paper. then we went to HARRIS TEETER. shopping with matt was nerve racking. im not sure why. but he's right. once we get into the swing of things it will be okay.

last night i left work early to take my apartment complex my letter for moving out and my check for the two months rent. then matt and larry came over. and we moved the dining room table and a bunch of stuff. ate dinner at carrabas. then i went home and went to sleep. then matt woke me up at 1AM. ;) ahhhhh.


being in love is such an incredible feeling.

i havent written in a whileee. friday matt had to do inventory until late so i hung out with heather at his house. we ordered pizza and watched the recorded episode of glee. then we went to the store and went to pick up morgan. i took them up to honda to see everyone, then we went to coldstone. saturday me and matt both had to work. it started off as a good day, but got really suckkyyy. i got upset on the way to my parents house about rentt. and matt was so patient with me. and he wanted to talk to me. it was reallyy nice. we had steak for dinner and we just played pool all night. then sunday we went to matts mommys house for lunch! she made vegtable soup. it was reallyyy good. then we rode forewheelers for a while. sooo much fun. now i want one! then we drove back to my parents for the halloween dinner thing. watched everyone trick or treat. then went back to youngsville. monday i didnt go to work. i didnt feel like getting out of bed honestly. like getting up wasnt worth it. plus my whole body was aching. but i got up around lunch time and ate, and cleaned the kitchen and living room and whatever else. its already dirty again, so it doesnt matter. we had applebees for dinner. then tuesday i worked at honda, then maserati. went with matt so he could vote. went to kohls. went to wendys. then got ice cream at lowes.

while matt was inside voting, his phone flashed like dead battery? and it made me so curious. which is weird. i never go through peoples things, especially not phones. but for some reason i haddd to. the only thing that i read was some stuff with kristine. it just hurt my feelings a little bit. i should have neverrr went through his phone. that was sooo wrong on my part. but we talked about it, and worked it out quite easily :) it was nice having someone who just talks about it with you. i was mad, i just wanted to talk.

and about this moving out thing. ahhhh, i dont even know exactly where i stand. i would love nothing more than to live with matt. duhhh! haha. but there is so much more to it. they were there first, and i dont want to move in on anyones space. especially larrys. because thats matts best frannn. plus, i dont want to feel like im the only one keeping the house clean and what not. i dont mind cleaning, but it just seems like no one cares when i do. and is there even room for me in the closet or bathroom? and how long are we going to stay in that house? i cant buy a new house anytime soon. i can barely afford living right now. and what happens if one month im short on rent? i cant run to my dad then. ahhh. its just scary because i love matt, and i dont want anything to get in the way of our relationship.