i havent written in a whileee. friday matt had to do inventory until late so i hung out with heather at his house. we ordered pizza and watched the recorded episode of glee. then we went to the store and went to pick up morgan. i took them up to honda to see everyone, then we went to coldstone. saturday me and matt both had to work. it started off as a good day, but got really suckkyyy. i got upset on the way to my parents house about rentt. and matt was so patient with me. and he wanted to talk to me. it was reallyy nice. we had steak for dinner and we just played pool all night. then sunday we went to matts mommys house for lunch! she made vegtable soup. it was reallyyy good. then we rode forewheelers for a while. sooo much fun. now i want one! then we drove back to my parents for the halloween dinner thing. watched everyone trick or treat. then went back to youngsville. monday i didnt go to work. i didnt feel like getting out of bed honestly. like getting up wasnt worth it. plus my whole body was aching. but i got up around lunch time and ate, and cleaned the kitchen and living room and whatever else. its already dirty again, so it doesnt matter. we had applebees for dinner. then tuesday i worked at honda, then maserati. went with matt so he could vote. went to kohls. went to wendys. then got ice cream at lowes.

while matt was inside voting, his phone flashed like dead battery? and it made me so curious. which is weird. i never go through peoples things, especially not phones. but for some reason i haddd to. the only thing that i read was some stuff with kristine. it just hurt my feelings a little bit. i should have neverrr went through his phone. that was sooo wrong on my part. but we talked about it, and worked it out quite easily :) it was nice having someone who just talks about it with you. i was mad, i just wanted to talk.

and about this moving out thing. ahhhh, i dont even know exactly where i stand. i would love nothing more than to live with matt. duhhh! haha. but there is so much more to it. they were there first, and i dont want to move in on anyones space. especially larrys. because thats matts best frannn. plus, i dont want to feel like im the only one keeping the house clean and what not. i dont mind cleaning, but it just seems like no one cares when i do. and is there even room for me in the closet or bathroom? and how long are we going to stay in that house? i cant buy a new house anytime soon. i can barely afford living right now. and what happens if one month im short on rent? i cant run to my dad then. ahhh. its just scary because i love matt, and i dont want anything to get in the way of our relationship.